Government-less.

Monday night was a random one, started with Sheila saying to go for a spin.. Both of us ended up at marina barrage with our "life's best friends", heineken and marlboro... Hahaha! Old times talk, emo nemo~ LOL! Then met Feeza at pond. According to Sheila it was scary that night.. Home by 4+am and aunt left for the States by 515am! Weeeee........

Tuesdayss... Ups and downs la. Hahaha! Had a huge fight with that mother of mine and i left crying. WTF?! Lol. Helped packup at the garage sales and back to ward before smoking break with the people who makes work enjoyable under the voiddeck! Went out alone in the evening and that's about it. (:

But it was last night where Sheila and me did stupid weird things at 4am in the wee hours. Web cam-ing and smoking and drinking and crapping and laughing and taking pictures..... Did brainless stuff like me shift the tv into my room with the dvd player, wanting to watch L word in comfort, but ended up having the tv screen tell me "USB cable cannot be read". I can't figure out what went wrong, so only got to listen to the song.. Haha!

So now, it's night shift on a wednesday and thursday night. Which means night on a ladies night(wed) and a lesbian night(thurs). Affected you know! Hehh.. Saturday better be a blast!

Simplicity is Happiness.

Spoke to Bridget on msn this afternoon. I so fucking miss her! (: Since europe's not a safe place to go next year, why not to nz.. Hahaha!

Play on thursday night with Sheila was awesome possum+++! Feels so, ahem. Lol. Its times like this that... Hehh.. I don't know what I exactly want huh. Going in circles. That's all I see myself doing.

And it was my first time at giant which seemed like amazing race. In 30mins, we just whacked and grabbed... Stocking up for 2 weeks of wonders. Haha.. Aunt's leaving on tuesday morning. When I saw those indian construction workers sitting on that field, drinking their beers and chatting so happily... Sometimes I envy them. I'd also want to be able to sit on the field under the night sky and drink like there's no care in the world. And it'll be nice to be able to be contented easily. I wish...

So many things have been happening recently that sometimes I don't know myself anymore. Don't know how am I gonna manage them all.. From work, to this to that, to money... $2000. Haha! Wth was he thinking. All I want is just a break, a breather. If only I could just hop on a plane or a ship and go somewhere all alone. Haa.

Cranki-ness.

When the ugly cold truths stare at me into my eyes, and yet I'm trying hard to find the beautiful side of it.. When will I get tired and just stop and give up? Maybe it'll be easier that way, for everyone.

Hehh... Super cranky the whole day today, especially at work. Came home after work and all I did was to sleep and online. 24hrs wasted. Ladies night? No mood for that. Work's been a chore. So does everything else. I just need a breather. TYVM. Very thankful that I'm off tmr and on friday. It's critical at this point to be not working. (:

I've said my part. Thanks for reading my short rant. LOL!

Reminiscence

Today was spent cleaning my room and bringing myself back to the past through pictures.

I'm reminded of the wonderful friendships that I had with afew people just not so long ago. Reminded of graduations. Reminded of orientation time when we believed that the 3years bond will fly pass. Reminded of mildstone-making overseas trips I had. Reminded of the feeling of falling in love. Reminded of the times when the whole entire family gatherings were not so hard to have..... The list goes on and on.

And sitting here now....
I miss Bridget, Yan, Sally, Verve, Stephen, Sarah, Nick, Robin.
I miss Sheila, Feeza, Iqah, Fiona, Ann, Juan, Mabel, Shannen, Elhannah, Bhavna, Priyaa, Huda, Liyana.
I miss Selina, CLN, Stephanie, JJ, Karshing.
I miss Jieying, Yixuan, Weiling, Sining.
I miss the old times. I miss being the old me, the one who easily adapts the fuckcare the world attitude.
Many things have changed. For the better or for the worse.

Breaking bond's been dwelling around in my mind, not going away... Work's not been easy. I used to hate and fear PSY nursing. Grown to love it 3months into work. But now, I'm hating it bit by bit again. It's not the patients, it's not the environment, it's not the relatives......

Year 2010. So many things happened. Life changing. Involved quite a number of life-changing decisions, and more to come.. (:

Post-night Affair.

The 2 nights were okayy.. Knowing that people on top were super busy, was a consolation to our not so busy. Hahaha! No rest was needed after work those 2 nights. Literally post-night affair for after both shift. (:

Pulau Ubin with the Sheila and Feeza after two nights was no joke. Tiring k! But fun+++! Hahaha! Red like Singapore flag after that. Hehh... Makan at Changi V, cabbed to get Feeza's car then off to my place~ Jacuzzi and sauna! Feeza was dripping wet in the sauna. Haa. Flat on the bed after they left.. Love these random outings. Hahaa! And it was one of our very few day outings!!

Followed by a sucky morning shift the next day, was shitty. Cranky at work. It's those 'just leave me alone' kinda times. It's off today, a relief. Work over the weekends shouldn't be that bad.

All I'm looking forward to now is just JB on Wednesday night, hopefully.

Quickie.

This week flew pass fast! Ups and downs... Tuesday was fuckedup at work. And at night when huimin was at the A&E for the second time, Sheila and I were at B2 carpark doing what we do best and talking about so many things! Hmm... Sister got warded in w48!!! Hahaha! Funny shit. INR was fun. Anyway, its urosepsis. (: Wednesday was work and....Powerhouse~!!! The merge of the nurses and Selina and CLN. Fun with the alcohol, dance and music! Yeehaaa!

Followed by Timbre on Saturday was awesome shit. Celebrating the birthdays of the October babies - Fiona, Iqah, Ann. As usual I was the only w14 there, so we cheers to CGH instead!! Hahaha! The truth or truth round outside Timbre was jaw-dropping!!! Ohmygod. So are the fun shots by the statue~ Lol. But what mattered most is that night was well spent. Fun songs, emo songs, they were awesome!

That made Sunday a tiring one... Church and CGH-ed. Simpang with Lala and Ohrange at night. "Tell us one thing that we don't know about yourself" Hahaha!!! Love that mann! Another jaw-dropping night.. WOAH!

Tonight, its working time. On night, again. Its like so fast please. Was excited, but now, sian. Haa.