Now listen to me baby.

Lecture today was rather interesting. Not the lecture itself but the convulsions and fits that we threw. HAHAHAHA!!! Laughing throughout the first half and knocked out for abit then continued laughing. Tiring to laugh so hard continuously eh.. Seah actually asked that we go back to sleep cuz we're a lil too noisy when we're awake. Lol.

Hmm, laughter does WONDERS. Seriously. It just perks you up so much, no matter how unreal it was at first... Went to work not in the mood. After a huge quarrel at home last night. It just mad me feel like I'm nothing. Haven't felt like that in a long time man. At home I'm nothing. Outside I'm nothing. Being nice doesn't mean people will appreciate you. But ohwell... That's life, face it.

Bought my black pants for graduation. Came home to the flowers that I wanted for graduation. Happy is happy la. But I thought it wasn't that appropriate after a hell of a night. Anywayyy.....

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I love my people (:

Supper last night was really good, as usual. When will Supper ever be a letdown? Hahaha!!! Honeypancake was there so we had a lil chat with her. (: Hmm... Not only good and fun things happen though. Jo fell, her skydive. Haha! And she got a not so nice news. When things like that happen, it just makes me think and wonder... What if such a tragedy happened to one of my really close fren, what if it's me, what if tmr really never come for me. Take plane also can crash, look for people also can fall off building, take car also can accident..... The list just goes on and on without ending.

Anyway, came home by 520am. Churched this morning and slept the whole afternoon. Lol. Wokeup a lil too late to go tamp with my aunt, so its alright I guess, tmr la. Hahaha.. Work once again tmr. Ohgod. I didn't have enough of the weekend man.

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"Friendship is the allay of our sorrows, the ease of our passions, the discharge of our oppressions, the sanctuary to our calamities, the counselor of our doubts, the clarity of our minds..."

Leave me alone.

Thursday dinner at Carls Jr after work with Hannah, Mabel and Shannen was AMAZING!!! From 6pm we've been laughing till 10pm. Whacked. Reached home so tired from all the laughter, those paralyzing laughters that Mabel named as 'convulsions'. Hahaha! More makan plans coming up~

Yesterday... Tamp with Huda after work and we had some HTHT. (: Rushed home and met Jo at white sands. HTHT with her at hongkong cafe. Hahaha!!! Decided not to iguana since abit far. Fiona came after that to meet us there where we had our crap talk and laughed so hard. Bought the mixers then off we went to the beach to meetup with Bav, Mai and Nabil. That's when all the drinking started! Feeza, Sheila and Fresh came after awhile. Nice night out. But left early since I had a 'curfew'.. Lol.

Supper tnight? I don't know. If gotta pay $20 then not worth it right.

Anyway, I was looking thru the pics uploaded by the crew that Verve's leading now. Just made me wanna go even more. The beautiful nature, the fun that you can feel throught those pics.... I want! At the same time, I think I'd really wanna go with a friend this time round. As much as how much I loved the fun going alone, it'll be better and nicer to be able to share those wonderful moments with a friend, no? ;) And seems like may isn't a bad time to go over. Next may? Or to do the end of year to next year thing? But where to save up so fast.

Hmmmm (:

All is well?

It's midweek once again. Liking how weekdays are passing at a pretty reasonable rate. Weekends should stil slowdown a lil more.. Hahaha! Tuesday was whole day in the ward. Lots of slacking. Came today, lecture whole day, and we were actually listening for the first half k! ;)

Dinner and shisha with Huda last night after work... It was so well spent, loved it. Caught up so much and managed to talk about so many things. LOL! Next up would be our cake and TEH. Hahahahaha!!! Came home happy. But things didn't turn out nice at home. And after such a long time, I cried to sleep again.

Hmm... When you're torn into two between both sides, how will you feel? When people at home just don't understand you.. And when you come home after work today, things just feel weird. And like what Hannah was saying, she thinks that I've ran in circles trying to escape too much alr, and now I finally know that there's no escape to it. Yes, I'll cry and vent, and I'll face and deal with it. But where's the mountain when I need to fall back onto it.. Ahh, I just want someone to hold me now and tell me that it's alright, it's okay.

Anw, Jo asked to go Supper tnight, but I think I'm just too tired and not really in the mood to club, though part of me wanna just get out there and have fun. I'll just look forward to Iguana with her on friday I guess.

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I wanna be happy, thats all I ask for.

Sitting in the rain this afternoon was really nice. (:

And I really wanna get out of here and go on a trip to somewhere! I don't mind going alone, just get me out of here.. ): Or at least fly me to BG for a good one week or so. Hahaha!

White angels of Supper.

This week just flew past. Work and play has been really great. Fair share at work with the IV cannulation and venipuncture assessments, and a fair share of play at supperclub on both wed and sat. Yes! Wed as well, all stoning in lecture on thursday. Hahaha! Now that we've been to the wards already, I really think w14 is an interesting place to work in, and there's so much for us to learn. Perfect.

Besides work and parties, nothing much actually. Maybe that few dinner talks with friends. Haha.. And not forgetting the sms I got from BG one morning when I woke up for work, regarding a guy flashing infront of her in the shop. LOL!!! What a news to wake up to.

Last night at Supper was really fun. Jo and I were most of the time together as usual.. And that girl was high enough and because of her highness we were talking to this guy from London. No, let me rephrase that, this CUTE GUY from London. Hahahaha!!! The guy whom we grabbed while in the smoking room for a picture together with.. ;)

Aiya, anyway after all these exchanging of mails and whatever, I can confirm on that thing I have for N. Hahaha... So weird and so not practical. Hmm..

Came home by 420am, showered and went to my room and had a conversation with my aunt. Talked to her about alot of things. And I told her BG's views and comments to some of it as well.. She was impressed and agreed to most of it. Then we talked about my friends and all.... Apparantly she was really 'impressed' that Hannah came to send me off to NZ that night. LOL!


**I can be a very tolerant person most of the times. But learn to know the limits and don't cross it cause once crossed, it'll never be the same again.**

Who's more excited, you tell me.

Just like magnets.. When people from two different poles meet, they attract??? You think so? HAHAHA! I don't know. We shall seeee (:

You gotta love waking up to a Happy friend.

Work today was pretty awesome since it started with waking up with a neutral mood and seeing Hannah all happy in the morning. Hahaha! Lotsa fooling around in lecture, and also some fullon knock out until dunno that I fell asleep kind.

Whole gang trained to eunos in our uniforms. Hannah went to collect uniform and then she accompanied me to CDC to get my account renewed and book FTT. (: Dinnered at HKcafe at whitesands... With our cheeeena talk and some HTHT. Happy day.

Things I miss:
Full energy. Having money. Having time. Self-belief. Beaches. Hot springs. Adrenaline rush. Winter. Haka crew. Carefreeness. Spending time with BG and our HTHT. Being out of SG. Old times. Secondary schood cheena days. Random fights. Stephanie. Selina&CLN&KS&JJ&My batch friends. Bav&Huda&Hannah&Jo. 'My old self'.

Heartbreaker.

Family dinner for mothers day last night at changi safara Jumbo Seafood was awesome! Though uncle Randy and family were not there, time was well spent talking and laughing over yummy food.. And not to forget the planning of a short trip end if this month. Yayy! Uncle Francis then dropped me off at the airport where I metup with Jo.. Happily chilling at T2 Yakun before meeting up with Bhav, then to the viewing porch where we just laid on the floor laughing away. Cabbed home by 2? And crashed into bed.

Churched this morning and now, soon I'm gonna have a short nap... Haha! Checked our orientation schedule and I'll be able to go for the short trip, which means I'm so going! ;)

Hmm, airport and sound of planes just make me wanna get out even more. And it specially reminds me of that time when I flew off alone to NZ, not knowing what exactly to expect when I get there, but with just the thought that BG will be there, it was already a huge relief and comfort. And to think of it, from the day I stepped into the land of kiwis to the trip with Haka tours to back to Auckland, life's already took a huge turn. Even as I came back to SG, it was just really happening... I wouldn't call all of it drama. But it's to the point where I don't even know what I'm truely doing at times. Though I've also came to terms with some things, even which I'd still wanna go to NZ once again for a refresher. Just to be with BG. I don't know. Lol. Hopefully I can go over end of this year, that'll be so much of a help. And yes, I've a handful of really awesome friends here who have kept me going, and I really appreciate them.

"Reckless words pierce like a sword into the heart, and it bleeds and hurt more than a broken bone."
It's so true. Especially if those words are from people around you really love and genuinely care, it just hurts even more. Not necessarily your family, but even as friends... What say you? And if anyone of you think that I've changed or anysort along that line, have you thought that you'd be the reason to that change? LOL.

Ohwell, time to snooze for now. (:

Roadblock.

Thursday
Went to tamp with Huda for a lil shopping, then Jo came.. Bought more stuff before Jo and I went for dinner at Swensens while Huda left (: Yumm!!! More shopping after dinner. Hahaha! Cabbed home with all our barang barang...

Friday
Boring lectures as usual. Long lunch break, so we went to eastpoint for lunch. Hmm, I literally slept through most of the time. *ting* I'm sucha good employee. LOL. Came home for abit after work before meeting JunHui for dinner. Was so nice to meetup after such a long time. So much of catching up and stuff. Yayy! Homed. Then before anything else happened, I ran out of house before my aunt came back. Hahaha!!! Trained to eunos. While walking to Bhav's block, I called Lily down. So there we were chilling and smoking, no more at the sun this time round. Feeza came after awhile, then Bhav, Nik and Ethan came... All happily downstairs laughing.

Bhav, Feeza and I then left to pick Nabil up for supper at tamp, where Jo joined us. Then to changi beach! Lying down at the spot where the planes takeoff and fly directly above us. Vrrroooom! Love it. Just reminds me of the moment when I flew off this island, this island of bars. And made me missed BG so much more. *sigh* So yeap, we were joking around and laughed so much there. Before dropping us home, Bhav drove us up OCH. Ohgod. I was hiding my face behind Feeza more than half the time. And the stories of eunos came back, Wtf. Hahaha! On the way to dropping me off, ROADBLOCK! LOL!!! Second time with such a huge roadblock la. So wasn't that tensed. Plus it's not from clubbing like the last time, was just some decent hangout and maybe that lil alcohol. Haha.. And, not forgetting that we came to know about our dear friend Jo more... ;)

As for today........ Dinner with the family later on at Jumbo Seafood, but not clarkquay since it's fully booked. Hahaha! At some safara place. After dinner, plans are not confirmed just yet. We'll see.

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Boring orientation

Last night was rather fun! Haha! After boring work, Huda, Lily, Mai and me went to tamp, macs and windowshopped a lil... Then i trained to simei to meet Fionana and went to bedok together. Maze to the carpark behind the lib. Hahaha! That girl ah, few puffs of cig, telling me she's giddy alr.. Joker. Feeza picked us up from there with Bhav and drove to BQ for makan at shah alam. *ahem* Followed by DNA.

The whole entire club, there's only the 4 of us.. Drinking and dancing all.. Hahahaha!!! Fucking funny. Left by 1145pm since i've my curfew.. Grrr... I wanna go supperclub!

Now happily in lecture.. Boring! Lol. Have been sleeping for the first 2 hrs. Hahaha! And i believe that nana is stoned infront, that girl vomitted last night. Lol

Lesson learnt & a huge relief.

After talking to Xuan this afternoon when she came to meet me for lunch, I decided that I should do the test. Jo said the same on sat at supper as well. Negative. HAHAHA!!! :D What a huge relief. After all these sleepless nights in the past month. I think this shud be able to help a some ways.. (: Lesson learnt. Protected or none.

DAY TWO of orientation was boring shit. Slept through most of the time, and FB on my phone.. Nothing much. Pretty boring life now these days since work started. It's like life's been at the peak, and when work started, ZERO..lifeless. LOL.

Brewerkz tmr after work? Hopefully it works out.

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A review of my days

Thursday
Slacked on my bed the enitre day, recovering from the night before..

Friday
CGH in the morning to submit some bull. Then lunched with the whole gang! Hannah, Lily, Bhav, Huda, Feeza, her 2 frens and me! Talking about wed night and all our funny drunkard moments.. Laughing the way through ;) Drove to tamp to get Jo's flowers and cake, and decided to head over to her place to suprise her for her birthday. Thank God we called before reaching, she wasn't home!!! HAHAHA!!! So we went over to Bhav's to slack. OMG, Hannah was just going on and on whacking Bhav, and I cudnt stop laughing.. Lol. Hannah left, and both of us went meet Jo at BQ for a drink and cut her cake. *ting* Dropped by DNA for abit and cabbed home.

Saturday
NEW HAIR DO!!! :D So yeap, rebonded my hair and cut another 3inches. Hahaha! Finished at about 7pm then trained to Dakota.. *ahem* My granma's place for dinner then zoomed to Supperclub to meet Bhav, her 2 frens and Jo. What a night! Loved it so fucking much! So much of fun la! Feeza and the whole gang were there as well and was Fresh's birthday. They got her a vibe! ;) Erm, both Jo and me had our time la huh... Hahahhaa!!! And we actually went up the bar to dance! LOL! Makan at shah alam after before coming home at 6am to a truck filled with scoldings. Now I have curfew, 12midnight, if not happy, earlier. WTF.

Sunday
As usual, stoned in church and was on FB the whole time to prevent myself from falling asleep and getting more lectures. Hahaha! Came home and slept after that. Tired la.. Was talking to BG on msn for abit when I woke up... We were just simply catching up and stuff, and I was telling her about my week and all. She was just listening and responding here and there when she felt like it, all the way to the end, then she told me straight in the face about wasting me time. OMG! I swear this woman is no joke, she just tells you what you need to be told. Haha! Then met Huda at tamp, cotton on, and then bussed to prata paradise to meet bhav there for dinner. And it's always there we're scaring ourselves... And this day, it marked the END of our hols and to the last bubble in our flowchart from CGH. First day of work.

Monday
That's today. 830am-6pm. Orientation. Rotting in the audi... Ohgod! We're sitting together and yet all are texting each other. Hahaha! Feeza, Lily and me had the bestes exchange of smses! I swear! So funny and horny! LOL! Laughing the second half of the lecture away.. After we ended, Hannah, Bhav and me headed to the coffeeshop to meet Jo for dinner. Yumm! Bhav left after that, while the 3 of us proceeded to buy icecream and settled down at the playground and had a talking session. Came home by 920pm. Thats it.