If only;

Met two people today. Interesting individuals. Isn't it nice to meet different people from different lands in a foreign land? Hahaa.. But those interaction also put me thinking... Each man is for himself. Friends, who. Family, what extent. It's a very wide topic to be said here actually.

If only, life can be as straight forward, simple and beautiful as drinking a glass of ice coffee.

Alone.

The adults just left for the musuem not too long ago, kids in their rooms upstairs watching tv, and me in my room using laptop. Perfect. Hahaha! Thinking of going for shisha alone just somewhere outside with a beer or something, then come back before the adults are back! And maybe a cup of ice coffee otw back~

Ciao! (:

Saigon.

Hello.

I'm just lazy to update the everyday happenings, and just sian-ed. Pictures just take too long to my uploaded. It's the end of day5 already. Returning back to SG in 2days time. So basically...
DayTWO: Mekong river
DayTHREE: Chinatown
DayFOUR: Cu Chi tunnels
DayFIVE: Hotsprings and beach

Honestly, how I wish the transition back in SG will fly pass. Can't really be bothered to be back there. Hehh. From the night I get back to the day I fly off, its already packed with plans. Tiring or fuck. It's the christmas season. Haha..

BG texted a list of alcohol for me to get on the way over cuz she got a new blender... So its a call for cocktails, which also means 2weeks of liver-wreckage. Love. If I ever die there, don't weep for me. At least you know that I died with one of my life's best friend.

Day ONE.

Some Vietamese pancake thing.. Hahaha! Its yumm, promise.

Vietnamese POHPIAH. Personally don't really appreciate it. Lol.

Beef noodle soup. Classic, love.

Omg. This huge chilli slices look as if they're small child's play. But it's super DEVILISH! Woah.

Alright, this is what I call heavy traffic.

Cute kids colouring on the street! (:

The balloon man. Haha..

Greetings from Vietnam!

Less than 2hrs flight on Tiger Airways and tadaaa..!!! Ho Chi Minh! Hmm, got my Marc Jacobs perfume and a watch inflight. Heee.

Just arrived at the guesthouse.. ((: Btw Vietnam=land of bikes. More than half the trafic's bikes with no sense of direction. Hahaha! Chilling for abit before heading out for FOOOD! FB's not responding to my love on the lappy, will keep trying, otherwise there'll be no pictures upload in the trip......

Alright, now its time to take a power nap then off we go to rock HCM~!!!

Ciao.

Have you ever....

Have you ever been so irritated and pissed that you just wanna cry.. Haa. Perfect feel, especially when there's screaming and shouting the whole time at work. When I just didn't already feel right when work started, and with changes in the upcoming roster that just destroyed ALL your plans, and with patients screaming and shouting NONSTOP, and patients repeatedly asking you about how to write a letter and bla bla bla...... The list never stops. Just makes your head wanna explode, I swear. And each time you pick up the casenotes to note the changes and thought you can write some report, you have to put it back down already... Thanks to the docs who love delaying, and started the trend of leaving some patients to see in the afternoon. Thought there'd be some peace and silence in the staff toilet, but no, I was wrong. I still could hear the shoutings from my bloody ward. Fucked. Not only gives you a headache , but you just wish they have 'one tight slap - QDS/PRN' in the IMR.. Or better still, a 'discharge STAT' in the IMR~

Spoiled whatever mood I had left for Play-ing after work.. So we headed to nabins instead. But still, sorry but I just didn't feel comfortable. Hehh. And all that was in my mind was....tired. LOL!

I just wanna have a break. But unsure what is it that I want a break from exactly. What a joke.

generallyy......

My parents. Haa. Till this day I still wonder at times why they even gave birth to me. For me to be their ATM? Never in my life have they put in any effort and responsibility as who they're suppose to be. This picture was taken on the day that they've been waiting for all these year. For me to graduate and start working so they'll be able to draw money from me. Hoping that I'll be able to pay off their debts, buy them a house, give them money every month...... It's all about money if you realise. Ohgod. Since my early teen years, father's already been wanting to borrow money from me. Never did they give me the feel of home. Gambling, loansharks, drinking, smoking and EMAs....... But I'm happy I've a sister. Not so much to confide or to be there for. But to know that I've a sister, its just that simple, it makes me happy.

My aunts, and extended family on mother's side. I adore them. I truely appreciate having them. They'll be the ones who showed me what love is within a family despites some misfortunes here and there. Yes I might be rebelious and defying them most of the times, but that's part of growing up...

Ontop of all these people whom I've the same blood running in me...... There's my awesome frens whom I have fun with and can run to, who keeps me going at many times.

As I look at this picture, looking at these people... We graduated together, as frens who stuck together. But since then till now, so many thing's changed. Really. And like what hannah says, the not so long ago frenships.. Hmmm.....

To love life. That's what I wanna do.

Hell Unleashed.

Hell was let loooose today at work though there was government! (: Loved it baby! Did junior... Would have done better without e-charting. Hahaha! Anw that's not the point. Had loads of fun showering all those patients with SSN sue li..!! The whole chop chop attitude was damn funny.. And she came up with the idea of starting a car-wash business. LOL! Hmmm, even serving diet was hell fun the other time with her...

Tmr will be another awesome day at work!!! Not only will I be in the same shift as Hajarah, we'll be working together same team as well........ ;) We've been waiting for like forever for this day to come! For us to be in the same shift is already like one in a million la.. Wahahaha! On top of that, Eeling will be with us on shift as well... Yayy!

If work can be like that everyday, I'd be loving my job wholeheartedly mann! Woots~

Anw, this week and next week, they're gonna fly pass... Off here off there, batam, nights.......... Then it will be time for MOT, then back to ward for one week, and I'm off for THREE weeks baby~!!! (:

Whacki-ness

Gosh.. Last night was a whacky night with sheila and feeza after work. Shhh.... Love my bitches! And as for work, I just ask for the non-nursing personnels to appreciate us nurses at least that lil bit, that's all I'm asking for, is it too much..? Hehh. Work's not that bad other than that. Plus velvet couture have been keeping us going at work! Hahaha! Thanks to nadchok.. (:

Hmm, you know sometimes in life, you just want something so very much and it'll just be stuck in your head the whole time.. But when you're there, when you almost have it in hand, you doubt. Not knowing if you still want it anymore, you're fearful, and you go back and forth about your decision. Cause you know that there's no turning back. Once its gone, its gone, and you might just have to live with that regret or nightmare after that. It sucks to have to be making such decisions isn't it?

mindBLASTING..!!!

Ohmygod! Hahaha! Have been on msn with BG since 1pm.. Love it! OMG! This trip's gonna be so fun I swear. No elaboration here but ya~ LOL!!! And we've already came up with this 3d2n roadtrip down to taupo for the skydive, bungy and hotspring...... Weeeee~ 3 of us. How I wish it could be 4 of us. Haa! Okay.. Shh.

Clevedon oysters, dressmart, sylvia park, queenstreet, k'rd...... The list goes on and goes baby! (x Top notch excitement please. And when BG starts school in the second week, I might just get the bus pass and bum around north nz... Yeehaaa!!

Ahhh... I can't stop laughing from disbelief and excitement. Heeeee~ (:

&its nad chok's last cycle of night tnight and tmr before leaving us! Glad that I get to night with her at least once.. Its gonna be a hell of a night! (: and damn yana! She's on her 2weeks AL! Bleah. My turn soon..! Hahaha

Me.

Naturally I'll avoid and 'pull myself away' to a certain extent when I get uncomfortable with a group of people.. That's me. Haa.

Anywayy.... Interesting dinner with aunt just now. We were talking about studying abroad and starting a nursing home or something like that overseas. Planning this planning that... Joker sia. So basically I'll be the first to go over to work and get PR and study. Either aussie or nz. Then my cousin will come over after she's done with her diploma to get her degree in being a vet. Hahaha! Then by then my sister might wanna come join us after her diploma as well, to do her degree in early childhood. Reason there's no degree course to be a vet in sg and there's no career in sg to be studying early childhood. Laying all the possibilities on the table over dinner. LOL!

Best part best part!!! We were talking about huimin and her boyfren, then out of no where, my aunt asked me if I'm going nz this time to find bridget or to find boyfren. OMG!!! Taken off gaurd la I swear. Hehh.. What even made her think that I'm meeting anyone else besides bg.....

Bought some magner's before coming home~ Woots~ (:

My Hideout.

My aunt asked me this.. If I'd left anything or anyone behind in NZ, that made me keep wanting to go back there, besides BG. My answer: BG lorr... Hahaha! I just can't wait to be there again, it's became my 'hideout' kinda thing. Feels like i'm under the eagle's wing, safe and sound. And of cuz there's more to it~ (:

"You're dealing with someone who doesn't believe in marraige, and someone who doesn't have much faith in relationships. Hope you understand and all I ask for is to be patient with me.. Let me learn to love and learn to trust again."

And, dewali at priyaa's was great! Meeting all of them again was just a fuzzy nice feeling, just a little awkwardness here and there due to some problems. LOL!

my 100th crazy post.

I smell Vietnam and New Zealand babayy~!!! :D

Okay now I'm feeling super excited, but also kinda confused feel.. First of all, I'm going back to the land where so much craziness started earlier this year, which was just about 7 months back... And here I am also, thinking of hopping onto the south island tour, and even msg-ing verve on fb about it. Haa. WTH. I don't know how to feel mann, and what I want. But I know I really want a friend to come with me this time round..... But then again, who.. Lol.

Aiya, life's too complicated, so don't bother understanding. I'm crazy. I took mc today, my second day of course. Diagnosis: GE... Haa.

My dream is to fly over the rainbow so high

D&D and partying at Arena last night was a blast..!!! (: But the best of the best thing that's happened in a long long time is......... I've recieved a parcel from brigo!!! Woots~ *dances around the house*

Was just thinking about flying over to aussie to meetup with her in dec and poof, I've got something from her.. Hahaha! I miss brigo i miss brigo i miss brigo.

Anyway, in my opinion, i think the course that I'm scheduled to go to tmr is gonna be rubbish. Hehh.. And its at bloody paya lebar. WTF. Gotta go back ward to take nametag first. How dumb.. Haha.. As for work, people are constantly leaving... Just shows how great it is at work eh? And now its a real life example going on about how friends just can't work together. Especially when both their mindsets when it comes to work is different, and when one carry balls and the other doesn't. Politics are something I've never liked. 3years. 6months down, only. God bless me. Just need my AL soon and quick!

Love wise, I love my friends, alot. Other then friendship love... The others are too complicated to explain. Hahaha! Philipines or Australia? LOL.

"When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.."

Government-less.

Monday night was a random one, started with Sheila saying to go for a spin.. Both of us ended up at marina barrage with our "life's best friends", heineken and marlboro... Hahaha! Old times talk, emo nemo~ LOL! Then met Feeza at pond. According to Sheila it was scary that night.. Home by 4+am and aunt left for the States by 515am! Weeeee........

Tuesdayss... Ups and downs la. Hahaha! Had a huge fight with that mother of mine and i left crying. WTF?! Lol. Helped packup at the garage sales and back to ward before smoking break with the people who makes work enjoyable under the voiddeck! Went out alone in the evening and that's about it. (:

But it was last night where Sheila and me did stupid weird things at 4am in the wee hours. Web cam-ing and smoking and drinking and crapping and laughing and taking pictures..... Did brainless stuff like me shift the tv into my room with the dvd player, wanting to watch L word in comfort, but ended up having the tv screen tell me "USB cable cannot be read". I can't figure out what went wrong, so only got to listen to the song.. Haha!

So now, it's night shift on a wednesday and thursday night. Which means night on a ladies night(wed) and a lesbian night(thurs). Affected you know! Hehh.. Saturday better be a blast!

Simplicity is Happiness.

Spoke to Bridget on msn this afternoon. I so fucking miss her! (: Since europe's not a safe place to go next year, why not to nz.. Hahaha!

Play on thursday night with Sheila was awesome possum+++! Feels so, ahem. Lol. Its times like this that... Hehh.. I don't know what I exactly want huh. Going in circles. That's all I see myself doing.

And it was my first time at giant which seemed like amazing race. In 30mins, we just whacked and grabbed... Stocking up for 2 weeks of wonders. Haha.. Aunt's leaving on tuesday morning. When I saw those indian construction workers sitting on that field, drinking their beers and chatting so happily... Sometimes I envy them. I'd also want to be able to sit on the field under the night sky and drink like there's no care in the world. And it'll be nice to be able to be contented easily. I wish...

So many things have been happening recently that sometimes I don't know myself anymore. Don't know how am I gonna manage them all.. From work, to this to that, to money... $2000. Haha! Wth was he thinking. All I want is just a break, a breather. If only I could just hop on a plane or a ship and go somewhere all alone. Haa.

Cranki-ness.

When the ugly cold truths stare at me into my eyes, and yet I'm trying hard to find the beautiful side of it.. When will I get tired and just stop and give up? Maybe it'll be easier that way, for everyone.

Hehh... Super cranky the whole day today, especially at work. Came home after work and all I did was to sleep and online. 24hrs wasted. Ladies night? No mood for that. Work's been a chore. So does everything else. I just need a breather. TYVM. Very thankful that I'm off tmr and on friday. It's critical at this point to be not working. (:

I've said my part. Thanks for reading my short rant. LOL!

Reminiscence

Today was spent cleaning my room and bringing myself back to the past through pictures.

I'm reminded of the wonderful friendships that I had with afew people just not so long ago. Reminded of graduations. Reminded of orientation time when we believed that the 3years bond will fly pass. Reminded of mildstone-making overseas trips I had. Reminded of the feeling of falling in love. Reminded of the times when the whole entire family gatherings were not so hard to have..... The list goes on and on.

And sitting here now....
I miss Bridget, Yan, Sally, Verve, Stephen, Sarah, Nick, Robin.
I miss Sheila, Feeza, Iqah, Fiona, Ann, Juan, Mabel, Shannen, Elhannah, Bhavna, Priyaa, Huda, Liyana.
I miss Selina, CLN, Stephanie, JJ, Karshing.
I miss Jieying, Yixuan, Weiling, Sining.
I miss the old times. I miss being the old me, the one who easily adapts the fuckcare the world attitude.
Many things have changed. For the better or for the worse.

Breaking bond's been dwelling around in my mind, not going away... Work's not been easy. I used to hate and fear PSY nursing. Grown to love it 3months into work. But now, I'm hating it bit by bit again. It's not the patients, it's not the environment, it's not the relatives......

Year 2010. So many things happened. Life changing. Involved quite a number of life-changing decisions, and more to come.. (:

Post-night Affair.

The 2 nights were okayy.. Knowing that people on top were super busy, was a consolation to our not so busy. Hahaha! No rest was needed after work those 2 nights. Literally post-night affair for after both shift. (:

Pulau Ubin with the Sheila and Feeza after two nights was no joke. Tiring k! But fun+++! Hahaha! Red like Singapore flag after that. Hehh... Makan at Changi V, cabbed to get Feeza's car then off to my place~ Jacuzzi and sauna! Feeza was dripping wet in the sauna. Haa. Flat on the bed after they left.. Love these random outings. Hahaa! And it was one of our very few day outings!!

Followed by a sucky morning shift the next day, was shitty. Cranky at work. It's those 'just leave me alone' kinda times. It's off today, a relief. Work over the weekends shouldn't be that bad.

All I'm looking forward to now is just JB on Wednesday night, hopefully.

Quickie.

This week flew pass fast! Ups and downs... Tuesday was fuckedup at work. And at night when huimin was at the A&E for the second time, Sheila and I were at B2 carpark doing what we do best and talking about so many things! Hmm... Sister got warded in w48!!! Hahaha! Funny shit. INR was fun. Anyway, its urosepsis. (: Wednesday was work and....Powerhouse~!!! The merge of the nurses and Selina and CLN. Fun with the alcohol, dance and music! Yeehaaa!

Followed by Timbre on Saturday was awesome shit. Celebrating the birthdays of the October babies - Fiona, Iqah, Ann. As usual I was the only w14 there, so we cheers to CGH instead!! Hahaha! The truth or truth round outside Timbre was jaw-dropping!!! Ohmygod. So are the fun shots by the statue~ Lol. But what mattered most is that night was well spent. Fun songs, emo songs, they were awesome!

That made Sunday a tiring one... Church and CGH-ed. Simpang with Lala and Ohrange at night. "Tell us one thing that we don't know about yourself" Hahaha!!! Love that mann! Another jaw-dropping night.. WOAH!

Tonight, its working time. On night, again. Its like so fast please. Was excited, but now, sian. Haa.

Missing you, you & you...

Thursday evening was better than awesome at huda's for raya.. Priyaa, Huda, Said and some others.... Omg, catching up and crapping was erm, nothing new, but loved it! Priceless laughter from the bottom of our hearts. ;)

On night on friday and saturday.. Friday was fun, with 'code purple' and afew incidents. Saturaday night was a bore. Time passed the slowest! Sleep or don't sleep, same thing. We're praying for BMU to call for lodgers to be admitted. Nothing. I was praying for AP to be violent, nothing. Hoping that Sap will wakeup and have us entertain her, nothing. We ended up refreshing FB every minute and napping on and off... Browed through some pictures and I'm missing BG, steph and nick. I miss those times in NZ when BG was always around. I miss those times during the tour when everything could be just so normal with him, and miss those times when he was over when things were more close to heart. I miss steph and the old times.

Saturday night passed just like that. -.- Didn't get to attend Kana's grand 21st bday party with collegues! And didn't get to party with my girls... But sheila, iqah and liza dropped by for a smoke break with me..

Spent my weekends sleeping in the day and stoning at work at night. Wth. Tonight was dinner at Ikea with the family, then picked my sister up to go A&E. She's fine, in my eyes. Lol. But now I'm pissed cause once again, the 'family game' has started. Fuck.

Anyway, fuck the drama. Here's something to think about... I wokeup this evening to this weirdest dream ever. Both steph and him were involved. Mygod! Torturing to my poor soul. But everything that happened in there were things that I've been thinking about recently and things that I want. Scary shit!

**Ok sheila, I'm confused. ): You find my blog interesting right... Now it's serious, I'm confused.**

I've never knew that Tuesdays can be so happening.

Omg I totally love today. Started off with Homecare-Assist with hajarah, erni and mai... Representing ward14~ (: Made a total of $257! Not bad eh.. Hahaha! Had fun with the girls in the process of making those money!

Met iqah after being those business women we're trying to be, makan-ed at eastpoint, cotton on-ed at tamp, window shopped at tamp and...... Off to ros sheila's house we flew to! Haha.. Slacked, watch tv, laugh, eat... Like pigs sia.

Happily they are there labeling me as confused bitch. Affected please! -.- Then only by end of the night, upgraded to clever bitch. Don't know how it happened actually, but its okay, I take that upgrade! (:

Then came the start of the cheap thrills~ ;) Geylang.
"How to see who is it?"
"Is it this one, is it this one?"
"Ok lets all look out for the dustbin and a man beside it!!!"
"Okok this guy this guy!!"
"Erm, is there anyone like undercover following us behind not?"
HAHAHAHA!!! :D

Next pitstop: My house. Had to re-orientate those 2 creatures to my room in particular. Since they claimed that an earthquake took place in here since the last time they've been inside. ): Sadded. Flaunted my mummy in the coffin, my guzheng! Wahahaha! Had black pepper beef and heineken..... Figured out the drinking game, Beer. DRINK!!! (:

Home sweet home after.

I've never knew that tuesdays can be so happening.......till today.

Friends to run alongside with.

I'm just having my hot coffee in my cold room, browsing through some random pictures on my laptop. Last night and tonight is just so emo please. Hahaha! Old times with friends, overseas trip with family..... Heee (: I love it!

I miss those trips where we'll go with the church, to like Thailand and Myanmar... You'll gget to see so much I promise. The kids just running around and all.. Put aside the works of mission and whatever not, but just the thought of being there, knowing that you're making someone's day and the smiles on their faces. Mygod! Satisfaction+++!

You just have to Move On in Life.

Besides the fact that we're under the same sky and we see the same moon every night, there's nothing much we go through in life that is common eh.. Parcel recieved. Safe-kept it for that few hours before making up my mind that since I've already decided, fuckit, and throw it away. (: Effort appreciated, but no thank you. Many times in life, you just have to move on...

Girls just wanna have FUN.

&we had FUN! (: Last night at Supper was a blast. 48284514. Though it was overwhelming with 48. Hahaha! And it's been a long while since I last came home at 530am after clubbing! Yayy!

"Nurul Huda"

Ohmygod. I see her name everywhere. As I flip open the roster, there she is. As I go to my locker, I see her big fat name again, on a post-it stuck onto her reserved locker 2 lockers away.. Hahahaha! (:

Hearty Nights.

Chat over supper with Hannah after work on sunday was indepth.. Followed by a crazy night out with Sheila and Feeza. All the laughter, visiting night staffs, cig budd-ing outside CGH, racing on the roads at 1am, throwing junk into Feeza's car at traffic lights, monkey see monkey do.... It's been a long time since I last came home at 430am. Lovely! Long chat with Sheila after her shift last night behind court.... Hehh.. Share share about love life and talking about lesbian shows, and defining 'the L word'. Hahaha! Love, lust, lost, lesbians.. And that woman was trying to categorise me somewhere somehow. (:

**Not just any doctor deserve any of our respect. Especially those who don't respect us nurses. Step on me and I'll bite your head off in time to come.**

Unwell.

Chose to be the 'clown' at work today cause I came to a conclusion that the shift won't be able to pass by with 2 staffs of the same team sitting at the counter pulling a face with low mood. Lol! Tiring trying to be all care-free and cheery when you're not at all in the inside. All survived a looong day at work! And love is the huge problem here. Hehh.

"There are different types of kisses. Kisses of passion, kisses of friendship, kisses that don't say anything, kisses that say everything... Maybe that is why a kiss means so much. Cause after you give it, there isn't a need to speak. Everything's already been said."

Nice! I so like this please. Heee(:

Part of me wants him to transit here for at least a day. Though I know that I'm still not yet fully in terms with the whole 'hidden truth', which is the reason why I'm still holding back. Might end up just running away from my fears again soon. Which suck big time. And I totally and fully know that even without this 'love', I'll be able to go on. Cause what that matter most are the friends around me. I mean I survived well enough even before he stepped into my life, no? Hahaha! Ohwell... Maybe you can help sort out my thoughts?

&the world moves on cause they can't see.

Work was enjoyable. Makan and movie with Hannah and Mabel was even more enjoyable! (: Our hangouts are always awesome, no? Hahaha! Going the distance was alright..

Point is, Elhannah Ho Yiting never fails to hit bulls-eye and pick out any of my pretense. Mygod. She's always full on accurate please. Hehh... Scary shit.

"uve learnt to talk things out within urself. i mean, i dontknow hw much hurt there is or like hw much pain u go through. but i donknow. i'd say grown. nt changed."
Hannah said that. I stared at it for a good FIVE minutes and still can't figure it out. LOL!
Not to everyone will my "I'm good/fine/alright" pass off just like that. Haha! Irritating or what.

Aiya, I love my darlings, all of them. That's it.

Beautiful Nightmare.

Awesome day with my darlings yesterday at Clarkequay. All the laughters, catchups, old-time talks, drinks and partying... (: Love how we just go on and on about our sec-sch days and laugh non stop. Hahaha!

Had a quarrel with my aunt at 6am this bloody morning. Then long day at work today.. Junior to HCA to SN work. Hmm... Nice staff I must say, but nothing beats the starbucks hot choc with love from mabel at the start of work~ Starbucks hot choc never ever fail as my comfort drink eh! &most importantly, I have my friends to fall back on anytime baby!

Warmth.

The pricelessness when I got to speak to BG once again on msn... Its like the warmest feel ever. Hahahaha!!! Just like this sunset.. The warmth, the peacefulness.... Wow.

The World through Camera Lens.

This is the world through camera lens. In the state of shock on how so many unfortunate events can happen to NZ one after another. Quake and skydiving plane crash. Woah... So how does the world look like through your eyes? Through mine, it's beautiful. The breath-taking nature and on the other hand, the destuction of it..

Look at the clown fish above, it's staring at you, in your eyes. It's a picture taken by BG while diving. (: Beautiful eh.. Haha! I miss her much. I miss him much. As much as I hate him, I love him. So what do I do? Hehh... I don't have the answer to it anymore.

Sweet As.

New Zealand. Hate how the quakes decided to hit that beautiful place. Will always remember that sucky feeling when Mabel first texted me about the quake when I was at work. Mygod! Not funny at all. But I thank god Auckland's not affected. Though there's still this small tinge of worry cuz BG still hasn't got back to me in any way. Hahaha! And its nice to see friends in NZ starting to post on FB. Good sign! (:

....But the times with you, they were real.

It's just like when he went "I love you but...."

Just these two days or so, there are TWO songs playing in my head on repeat. 'Have you ever' and 'Love the way you lie'... Reason I decided on this is basically I just wanna hold on to whatever that I've always believed. And the reason why I took this long was cause I still love you very much. (: Hanging in there great so far, has been almost a week. Doing good. Hopefully it continues to be good. Hahaha! I'm just gonna do what I like and live life to MY fullest.

Anyway, Feeza's SUPERLICIOUS SUNDAY was a success!!! Mission accomplised, she cried. Stuck to our theme, Stupid Got No Limit. Hahaha! Loved it.

Stepup3 and Grown ups with Jasmine tonight. Was awesome! So need to watch stepup3 again soon mann! The cheap adrenaline pumping thrill, ohgod. Heavenly.

lateNIGHTS.

Random latenights have been awesome! (:

New hangout places includes pond & changi! Hahaha!! Thinking back about tnight, I can't stop laughing... From the moment we changed our plans to cycle to changi, to meeting at the busstop first, to the punctured bicycle, to feeza coming, to snapping away, to playing sparkles, to jumping around cuz of cats, to the neither aunties nor uncles, to magnum love, to fitting the bicycle into feeza's car, to cabbing home, till now~ Omg. What a night.

I love my people.
I'm a happy soul.

xoxo (:

Friends.

Friends. Such a huge word.. Haa! But omg, they're amazing! (:

Really appreciate that random night where chinese meet malay meet geylang meet spin at changi... And best part, random teh at saffrons and our hangout on a picnic mat by the pond under that nightsky. Laughter, dancing, singing, sharing, crying.. What a shift in mood eh. Haha! Aiya, so much was said and showed, ive got no time to go into details now!

But i definately love my friends! And a huge thank youu to all(:

Position-LESS.

I'm in no position to say to you what to do. Likewise, you're in no position to say to me how should i feel towards this.

As much as how I'd like to hold on to this regardless, now I don't know anymore...

Tell me about love.

Nothing kills faster, hurts harder than a "I love you, but..."

Just when I thought I saw a glimpse of light to this love, it became dark again. Everything was going well, we might even meet again for sure soon, but your few words made my hope and dream came crashing down.. That you might be going back soon. Haa! I should have been knowing that this day will eventually come eh.

Not that we want, not that he asked, but just a thought... Is it really true that the only way to let us be together is to get married? If its so, then its okay. Marriage will never be for me at least for now. What's marriage. Something to be broken at the end of the day? Hehh... Seen too much, been through as much. Don't wanna be a part of the tragedy... Yes, I've got no faith in marriage, none at all.

And the thought of work tmr with my beloved preceptor.... Not at all helping.

The power of love.

Its suprising how people just decide to get married just like that. Maybe that's what love does? But as for me, the thought of getting married, it chases me a million miles away! Hehh.. Sad or what.

Anw, i miss my boyf. And i love him +++! (:
Hahahaha!!! I shall heed his brainless advice to do wordsearch when i'm bored to save money.
Soon i'll complete many many seriessss of wordsearch!

The beauty of.......